It’s very rare that I feel the need to discuss my dreams in this particular blog. I guess a lot of times when I feel the urge to, I opt not to, because a lot of them are spiritually based and bit sacred. I do discuss them with a couple of friends that I know are very good in helping me interpret them and a lot of times,what I dream about does or has come to pass and the dream is a mere warning or heads up that I refer back to in reality. I do have personal blogs and journals that I feverishly turn to when they occur. I write down as much details as possible and muse about the meaning behind it.
Today I want to share this particular dream publicly, because I get a sense that it has something to do with where I’m headed in the new year. Also, maybe there are other dreamers out there too that need a little help in figuring some symbols out. A few weeks ago I was bit tripped out when I realized my proclamation at the end of last year basically came to pass. I proclaimed that I had work to do in 2-0-1-2 and I did the work. The major part was breaking through with Monarch Magazine, but I admit, as much as I was enjoying the high I was still frustrated because my financial situation hadn’t changed…much. Later on, I started small and took on someone that became my first client to what I can call my consulting business. Yet, I feel there is still work to be done in that area to make my business solid or legit. I’m thankful for the blessing that came through this year with those two things, but I feel the need to push some more, especially if I want to gain financial independence and stability.
As the year began to wind down, I felt myself anxious to want to be in a certain place by a certain time. Meaning, I wanted to score the perfect job that would still allow me to freelance while maintaining a good salary. I almost did, a few times actually, as I applied for various positions with the Smithsonian. Each time, I was sent a letter that I was “best qualified” but wasn’t referred to the hiring panel because I was beat out by a veteran. However, one position with the Smithsonian was non-federal, but was still the ideal position. Unfortunate for me, I was sent a letter saying they enjoyed reading about my qualifications but were only hiring within the agency at time.
I’ve spent the last three years looking for a full time job and coming close to being hired 75 percent of that time. It’s exhausting and it’s making me take a look at other options, including pushing forward with my entrepreneurial venture and seriously considering looking for something outside of the D.C. area completely. Enter my dream I had earlier today during my nap.
In my dream I was with Kandi Burruss of former musical group Xscape fame and currently stars in the reality show Real Housewives of Atlanta (RHOA). On RHOA she is in a serious relationship with this guy and they both moved into this gorgeous and spacious home that they are working to decorate and so forth. On the show, it seems that Kandi makes wise investments in her homes. Her previous home she purchased at 19 when she was with Xscape. She spent years and her hard earned money renovating (what looked to be ) a one level home, adding on to it, including a swimming pool. I was shocked at the beginning of this season when she is shown packing up her stuff and moving to a new home in a gated community. In my dream I’m in an empty house that is presumably Kandi’s. However, it’s not the previous home shown on the show. The house has a brownstone or old Victorian Capitol Hill kind of feel. Sans a few boxes that Kandi is packing up, the house is empty. In the dream the house is familiar to me. For some reason I think it’s the house I was in during a time when I was in Atlanta for one of my uncle’s wedding. Immediately I noticed the colors in the house. The downstairs areas were mainly a shade of blue. The kitchen was pink. I know… sounds gross right? But the kitchen was really cute and BRIGHT with the pink. There black and stainless steel appliances and I really in awe about the house. I really feel in love with the house. I felt at home.
I asked Kandi did she own it and she gave me this look like “did you really just ask me something that you already know?” I laughed. She asked me what was I thinking and I begin to tell her my situation and how I’ve been looking for a job in D.C. but maybe I just need to move away. So I tell her that I plan to apply for something in Atlanta and if I’m hired would she consider renting out her house to me. The interesting thing is, I talk about renting the house from her, not buy it, although it would be my desire to buy. She agrees that she would be willing to rent me the house once I score a job in Atlanta. I run outside and notice her backyard. While outside on the front the street seems busy as it seems to be in a busy area of Atlanta, the backyard was peaceful. There were hundreds upon hundreds of pine trees. There was a built in wooden walk way that led to a covered up pool and a gazebo. There was also a hibachi nearby where Kandi had a roast grilling!!! I should also note that her man was there, but it’s not the same guy that viewers see on RHOA. It was an older, distinguished looking guy. He didn’t have any speaking parts in my dream, but I knew that was her man. There was a crazy moment in the dream when one of Kandi’s cast mates from RHOA skydived and landed in her backyard. It was the guy Walter, the one that is now being dubbed at the fake boyfriend of the other cast member Kenya Moore. I don’t know why he appeared in the dream, only to say his presence brought attention to the pine trees as his behind was being pricked by trees as he landed.
I was awakened from my nap after I got a good look at Kandi’s roast. It was actually being grilled sideways, but it was still tender and juicy. After awakening, immediately I pondered if should just apply for a job outside of the area …just to see. The dream probably has nothing to do with looking for work and moving outside of D.C. but still…
Here are quick references on what the main symbols – the house, the colors pink and blue and pine trees – could possibly mean. All references come from Dream Moods.
House:
“To see a house in your dream represents your own soul and self. Specific rooms in the house indicate a specific aspect of your psyche. In general, the attic represents your intellect, the basement represents the subconscious, etc. If the house is empty, then it indicates feelings of insecurity.”
Kitchen (Pink):
“To see a kitchen in your dream signifies your need for warmth, spiritual nourishment and healing. It may also be symbolic of the nurturing mother or the way that you are for your loved ones. Alternatively the kitchen represents a transformation. Something new or life altering is about to occur. The dream could also be telling you that if “you can’t stand the heat, then you need to get out of the kitchen”. You need to abort your plans.”
“Pink represents love, joy, sweetness, happiness, affection and kindness. Being in love or healing through love is also implied with this color. Alternatively, the color implies immaturity or weakness, especially when it comes to love. Consider also the notion of getting “pink slipped”. Pink is also the color for Breast Cancer Awareness.”
Living Room (Blue):
“To dream that you are in the living room represents the image that you portray to others and the way which you go about your life. It is representative of your basic beliefs about yourself and who you are. Alternatively, the living room is indicative of your freedom and space. The living room is a symbolic boundary between your personal self and your public self. Objects that do not belong in the living room denote the various aspects of your life that are invading your personal space.”
“Blue represents truth, wisdom, heaven, eternity, devotion, tranquility, loyalty and openness. Perhaps you are expressing a desire to get away. The presence of this color in your dream may symbolize your spiritual guide and your optimism of the future. You have clarity of mind. Alternatively, the color blue may also be a metaphor for “being blue” and feeling sad. If you are wearing light blue in your dream, then it symbolizes your creativity. You like to pace yourself in whatever you are doing.”
Pine Tree:
“To see a pine tree in your dream symbolizes immortality, life, and/or fertility. The dream could also be a pun on “pining” for something or someone. To smell pine in your dream indicates that you to be re-energized and uplifted.”
Sometimes the references are on point. Other times, it’s a near miss as I find out later on that the symbols been something completely different, which is why I’m gonna to pray about this one and for it’s actual meaning. I get the jest. I need to make a serious move.
The holiday season caught me off guard. Last night I actually tweeted that I’ve reached “La Petite Mort.” I haven’t conducted any business or written any of thing of serious content in the past week and a few days. I do have follow ups and other things to conduct, but all I’ve been doing lately is cooking, baking, eating, drinking and entertaining. New Year’s day is a couple of days away. I’m sure it’s time to get off my ass and make a move. A literal move out of D.C…. that’s still questionable. Whatever 2013 is bringing my way….I’m ready.
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